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What the $#@! is going on here? I don't know if I should be laughing or concerned, or both.

OP needs immediate medical assistance.
IanaMD, but There is a Problem obvious to the layman.

mental health is no joke. keep trying to get help and get better.

I told the story because there were pilots in on the harassment I experienced while playing this game a couple years back.

I can shrug at it now, but all the events I described, some of which I captured with my phone's camera, happened.

It was not imagined.

And I did seek treatment, which only made it worse.

The last two jobs I had, a good portion of my coworkers were paid performers and health care givers; nurses. I had to FIGHT to talk to the REGULAR NORMAL employees, who were all terrified of me.

You know what's really amazing is that I'm an older guy who's been through it all, but I get treated like those young 20-something lunatics with weapons. Like I said, I've called the police, the sheriff's department, and all other law enforcement. But no one was willing to look into it.

I have NO IDEA what brought on this massive amount of attention. I'm baffled. I really am. I tapped my breaks and yelled at some lady for cutting me off in a parking lot, and I get treated like a potential mass murderer.

And now I'm broke and am about to lose my house?

Before this post gets removed, how many of you think what I went through was fair?

"This man needs help".... give me a break. This crap STARTED after SOUGHT HELP.

I thought to myself "Phew, thank goodness nothing happened. I'll go see a therapist, maybe go on meds, get a job, keep my house, and that'll be the end of it."

But instead I was harassed and hounded.

Thanks.

one love best of luck.
positive outlooks are good to have

My roommate is a police officer, I'm pretty sure they don't conspire against a certain amount of the population for cutting old ladies off and/or flipping them off, I'm gonna say this man but that paranoia is hardly the case of a sound mind. And yes, psychiatry does have a high level of relapse, but if it's there don't slap a hand away.

Here is a Cali MHA number: 916.557.1167 call them man, and they will help you if they can

It is clear that you are an attention seeking, self consumed blow hard who has nothing better to do than dredge sympathy from forum readers.

I like your DRAMA man!

Welcome back., or goodbye. Whichever you decide you're going to do after playing this audience.

seriously this is not something you should be crying about on a $#@!ing internet forum

Most of us reading this thread have been on this forum for as long as it has existed and are clearly not hired to observe you.
And everyone one of else can tell at a glance from your posts that you have serious mental problems - based on YOUR OWN ACCOUNTS of events.
You do not draw reasonable conclusions from situations and use them to justify your own paranoid theories.
Whatever drugs you are taking are probably making you worse and not better.
You made one post and then everyone on here immediately knew you were off your rocker. There is no surprise that everyone you actually see in real-life views you similarly.

At some point you have to realize it's not EVERYONE ELSE, it is actually you.
Get some sleep, quit the drugs, avoid stressful situations, don't drink alcohol, eat healthy, AND STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS WITH ANYONE WHO ISN'T A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL.
QUOTE STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS STUFF WITH ANYONE WHO ISN'T A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL.[/quote]
QUOTE STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS STUFF WITH ANYONE WHO ISN'T A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL.[/quote]
QUOTE STOP TALKING ABOUT THIS STUFF WITH ANYONE WHO ISN'T A MENTAL HEALTH PROFESSIONAL.[/quote]
You will never get the response you are looking for from anyone.
Focus on bettering yourself and your life and your situation, and stop looking for people to pity you or to validate this stuff you say.
Go get a job doing manual labor. It's low-stress and very fulfilling. It's healthy. Or just take up running.

I am bankrupt, and I've never had a home that my "family left me", and you don't see me talking about blowing my head off.
Your world perspective is bad. Fix it. That's the only thing that will give you the result you want.

STOP TAKING YOURSELF SO SERIOUSLY. TO THE UNIVERSE, YOU ARE INSIGNIFICANT. TO PLANET EARTH, YOU ARE INSIGNIFICANT. TO THE HUMAN RACE, YOU ARE INSIGNIFICANT. TO PEOPLE ON THE ROAD, YOU ARE INSIGNIFICANT. NOBODY IS CONCERNED ENOUGH WITH YOU AND YOUR LIFE TO CONSPIRE AGAINST YOU - WE ALL HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO (LIKE TO WORK SO WE DON'T GO BANKRUPT AND LOSE ANY HOME WE MIGHT HAVE)

Your paranoia causes the justification for your own paranoia. It's a self-fulfilling prophecy. I used to be as superstitious as you. This is not unfamiliar to me. Don't underestimate the power your mind has over your reality.

Good luck.


p.s. The best way to draw attention to yourself by the law is to say stuff about you having suicidal/homicidal tendencies and mental health problems coupled with easy access to firearms - IMMEDIATELY AFTER A SCHOOL SHOOTING
If you are being monitored, it's not because anyone is conspiring against you, but because you make posts like you are doing now.
Whatever situation you are in, YOU put yourself there and YOU are the only one that can get yourself out. Stop drawing attention to yourself and focus on work, exercise, health.

I shall be stalking you. Keep your eyes open!